Om Sai Ram Om Sai Ram
Parents are the start to all relationships we garner from the moment we enter this world to the end. They are the foremost of all teachers from whom, we learn and without their blessing, we are incomplete.
I am blessed by a lovely boy 14 years ago which was the most memorable moment of my life. He was my world and guess this is the case with every mother. In Satcharitra the author narrates “when a child is adorned with new clothes, a mother’s joy is boundless whereas the child does not show attention to it” and this is perfect example of mother’s love for her child. We love our children unconditionally like Baba love his children. Having been Baba’s devotee last 15 years, I tried in multiple occasions to accept my son the way he is but to my dismay irrespective of how much I try to reform his ways, he would not.
He had no zeal to doing anything in life and never behaved normal like other children of his age would do. He does not like to study, so what else does he want to do was a question that I constantly lived with and there is no answer to any of my questions. Because of constant battles and arguments at home, it also started to have an impact on my marriage, as my husband could not tolerate any more and felt I was responsible for the entire situation. House became a living hell as there was no peace, no progressiveness- leave alone no love and happiness.
I prayed to Baba relentlessly but at that point, I did not realise that my prayers lacked bhakti but were filled with fears. I started losing hope for last few years. I was approached for joining Mahaparayan group and I signed up to do reading two chapters every Thursday for the Mahaparyan group, with the hope that something will change in my life. Again, please note the word hope that I write as that is where, I was not able to bring a shift in my life. I lived with hope but never moved towards faith, that Baba knows the best and whatever is given to me is for my highest good. Mahaparayan is just bliss engrained in the form of a book. Every Thursday when I opened the book, the very touch healed me. Gave courage to confront my son and his behaviour. I have personally seen him improve so much in the last few months and can clearly see baba working through him. His grades are better, and I notice that he is much calmer than before or can say I learnt how to handle him with Baba’s guidance. He is a 14-year-old body with under 10-year-old maturity, but I have faith in Baba. When he could bring us this far, he will take us ahead in this journey. The reading of this book taught me to keep walking in life and holding the book for any question I have. Baba is the faith and Baba is the answer.
